Another chapter closed

Mr B and I are officially over.

As much as we are similar in personality, emotionally, we are too different. Or perhaps, I should say, we are not ready. He’s not willing to give, and I’m not willing to be the first to give. Of course, there were other issues, basically, an accumulation of such.

What I can say is just that I’m totally disappointed and frustrated with the whole issue.

I did really like him. For the first time, after dating so many guys over the year, I did really like someone. For the first time other than Mark, I felt that pain in the chest. And I thought there was something in the chest that caused me to feel a pain.

*deep breathe*

Perhaps it’s retribution. If it is, then, I have many more to come before I get to meet someone I can settle down with.

Picking up the pieces, I blame myself for having to start all over again and to carry on with my own life, the way it was, a month before.

While searching for true love, singles like us envy those deep in love, for they have found that earlier than we have. Yet, once in it, we wished we had not gotten ourselves into it.

At the end of it all, I know I’ve learnt about what I’m looking for and have also tried what it is like to date someone similar.

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It’s the first day of a new month. A fresh new start for me from here. I’m looking forward to my training and my new-found career. I’ve been dreaming of stepping my foot into Japan and now, finally, I will get the chance to do so.

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And now, I just feel like watching Sex and The City DVD.