I shall be honest. I cant kid myself anymore. I did feel a tinge of jealousy when he spoke of her. Oddly, for a moment there, the word "my gf" did made me re-think. I could almost hear myself saying that "it's not me". It was like a reminder. Funny.

Angel is right. I have to move on. Perhaps it's a question of can we really move on? Deep inside us, we both knew how hard it is.

As with regards to writing my thoughts here, if it hurts, really, dont read. Coz it's my thoughts and I dont see a need to not write thinking that it'll hurt ya. I dont agree that Mr B was a replacement. I did enjoy the times spent. But, it was a different experience. It was not to replace anything. Coz it's so different that it cant be replaced.

Chatting with SY and CS yesterday about relationships, yes, perhaps SY is right. If I met the right one, I would probably not feel all these.

Somehow I believe in we attracting the kind of person that we are. Then, if so, do we need to prepare and build the kind of indestructible strong self so that we can attract someone like this?

Does it mean that until the day that I can finally let go of my past and everything about Mark, will I then find the right person?

As much as I know I cant hurry to let go, I am also anxious that it takes me so long. In fact, it makes me worried that I will take even longer. Despite being in and out of subsequent relationships.