Totally unexpected!

it's definitely a rare thing for me to be online..and I saw Mark online!!!

Somehow, dunno where and when courage came to me and I dropped him a message..i was expecting no reply from that msn window...i even had it closed after dropping that "Hallo".

But, reply, he did send me.

We chatted for a while..the usuals how have you been etc..

Honestly, I dont know how to describe all that feelings. Perhaps it's nothing to describe. At least not yet. I need time and space to compose myself..to process those emotions / thoughts..

It's funny. Somehow you know you do think of that person and you know he is attached. In the past, before time allows you to heal, jealousy is definitely there. But now, after so long, I cant say jealousy is part of it. It doesnt seems like it. I think I am more amazed by myself that I have not succeed in erasing him out of my life even after so long. Or even after not contacting each other for so long.