Gosh. It's been a while since I've written anything here.

Somehow I feel I've lost control of my life abit. I cant get to idle and do the stuff I wanna do. My day starts from 5.30am till 11pm 5 days a week. Weekends arent any better with my body adjusted to the biological clock of habitually waking up early in the morning.

My mind keeps telling myself repeatedly that I'm tired but after a day
s work, I still insist on going out instead of heading home to get rested for the following day, reason being, I am aware of the lack of time for me to chill. It doesnt help but make things worst by creating a vicious cycle until the day I decided to go home and get rested.

Did I say I hate regular hours-job? Thank God it is only for a couple of months.

There has been regular sharing sessions at work with my other trainee-colleagues on our views, feelings and opinions of each other. I cant help but feel that I am going ahead everyday with my instincts rather than thinking things through and that I should be the master of my mind instead.

Things at home were rough for early part of the week. Dear and me made a terrible mistake last week and now, I'm facing the music which has an impact on us getting the message across to my family. - what message? - tying the knot.

I brought up the idea to my family last night and so glad that I did before I give them a shock by coming back with a ring on my finger, which hasnt take place yet. (so relax people.) heh. Ahem, response was : an interview with the parents is needed, especially with Dad. I am totally unaware that something like that existed and that it is still practised today!

What interview? As far as I can remember, it will be about my husband-to-be's future plans : career, what type of housing he providing and since in this case, my Dear is going to NZ to pursue his degree, I think my parents would be very concerned about how sincere he is blah blah blah.

Looking from my parents' point of view, I have no objections to what is about to take place. Just that my poor Dear is so nervous about it! heh. oh yes, I gave hints to his examination questions so that he wont be caught unexpected. hahaha.

I have confidence in Dear that given his sincere and honest personality, he should not face any problems. Yet somehow, I must say i'm also nervous about it because I know my dad can be such a difficult person. What's more it is my first time encountering this!