Just touched down from L.A and was so surprised by who I met at the airport. Relax! Not any of my ex. hahahahha. It was Ah Beng. Adrian. My good Bah Guk Teh friend. Apparently he was at the side, where all of us stewardesses were standing and waiting for our cargo bags to be out at the baggage belts, waiting for his surf board to be out. He has just got back from Bali. The shocking news is that he is heading to work in KL for 1 or 2 years.
Sigh. Alot of my frens are moving out of Singapore. Talk about globalisation huh. Ron is heading to work in Hong Kong, Ah Beng is going to KL, my parents will be heading to Shanghai for god knows how long. Me and my sis are moving around the globe.
On my this trip, I had the hardest time in L.A hotel, missing my family back in Singapore. I was imagining lotsa of things and for some reason, I missed them alot. I never get this before and it has never hit me so bad. So bad that I had to called home to check and hear for myself that everything was still the same. It hit me so bad that I cried the moment I hear my Daddy's voice.
My daddy has been the best Dad over the past year. Perhaps it was because of a combination of factors. One was age, that he had come to realise that giving for your family satisfy and makes him happy. Another reason was probably that me and my sis are not always around. I totally love the way my dad is now. So family-giving. So loving. It makes me feel so happy when i am around with my family in singapore.
One of the things I want to write about here is kinda of an answer/reply to a gal's blog.It's regarding the losing of loved ones, or anyone we have come to contact with, and also with regards to life by and large. It's my 2 cents worth which i learnt from buddhism. i know she is probably reading this so here it goes :
" How should we comprehend Life? Life has enormous diversity. It is rich and filled with energy. At the same time, it operates according to certain laws and has a definite rhythm. Life is also free and unfettered. It contains everything in the universe. Every living creature. The word Life is a contemporary word that give a unified expression to all dimensions. Universe is Life itself and that life, together with the universe, has always existed and will continue eternally. An analogy would be like the water in a teacup. It represents the universe. When the wind blows, it creates ripples on the water's surface. Those ripples are our lives. They represent one of the workings of the life of the universe. Therefore if the wind disappears, the ripples, too, will disappear, and the water will return to its original state. So, therefore, our life, we live as a ripple is created and when we die, it's like returning to the ocean. But this continues eternally, so our life, like the ripple and the water, continues eternally. It explains the past, present and future. It is like when we wake up in the morning, we resume our activities based on the same mind as the previous day. In the same way, in each new existence we are destined to live based on the result of the causes created in our previous lives.
Rather than fused with the universe, we
are the life of the universe itself. And that life itself causes changes.
Vaclav Havel, president of the Czech Republic (and formerly of Czechoslovakia) asked what was necessary for democracy today to revitalise humanity. He suggested that the democratic societies were afflicted with materialism and the denial of any kind of spirituality. He presented his conclusion and that is, if democracy is not only to survive but to expand successfully and resolve those conflicts of cultures, then it must discover and renew its own transcendental origins. It must
renew its respect forthat nonmaterial order which is not only above us but also in us and among us, and which is the only possible and reliable source of man's respect for himself, for others..."
For one thing I have learnt after much reading, and that, with all the struggles and problems we face in our lives, it is the reality. With practising in buddhism, we gain a perspective that we see our problems and sufferings as insignificant and as tiny as a piece of flotsam in the vast ocean. But true buddhism doesnt stop here. We then go on back to reality of daily life and society, facing those challenges and overcome them. We show actual proof from these and help others be happy by guiding them too.
Over the past few months or has it been more than half a year, I can feel my life moving in a more positive direction and has never been clearer about my life and has never been happier.
I have set for myself new year resolution and that includes not to touch cigarettes completely. Proud to say, I have been good so far and it can only get better.
I am also very clear about my perspectives towards relationships and I feel totally fulfilled with being single and I have also managed to come to terms with my past and am ready to accept, forgive myself and move on. I am glad I am healthy again.
What I want to say is that, there is always a reason for something to happen. I think to lose our loved ones, it teaches us to love, to feel those extreme feelings, to enable us to understand how others who are going through the same thing as we did and that we can empathise and help them too.
For one, I would like to say and would only mention this once. I am glad Mark is happy. =)
