It's funny how some things can trigger emotions in a person. It's always been at the back of my mind and time allows me to put that aside and be happy. To all my dear friends who have been most concerned about me, thank you! I have been very happy being single and all. Enjoying all the things that makes me gay.

Perhaps it was the Happy Lisa that attracts you..I have no idea what makes u so attracted to me..perhaps it is just a crush that you have and I am happy to get all that attention from you dude! But I am in no condition ready for anything serious. Unlike guys, I cant be with another to forget the past nor move on...unless...maybe I have not fallen in love yet..perhaps someday when I really fall in love with someone else, I'll forget the past, I'll forget him. Still, I must say, I am flattered..

Having said that, this whole issue just reminded me of him and the past..it is at first objective and detached..but now that time is drawing near..I'm afraid I sense his presence when the time comes and being reminded of having someone else in the picture then, I am once again sad and heartbroken..disappointed i should say. Lots and lots of disappointment. But I ask myself why.. have I not forgotten all that I felt for him? Why does this pain seems so familiar? Why does it take forever to go away? It has been so many months..

When you showered me with all the sweet-nothings, I wished it was him. The feeling of being wanted is desirable indeed but how i wished it was him. Emotions aside, reality check. It's not gonna happen with everything else that took place. I was afterall, being replaced by someone else in his heart.

These teardrops, thank goodness, hasnt seen the world for many months! Even if you a just a step away, I cant turn because I'm stuck, stuck in this little sad world of mine. But you've made me felt loved which I hasnt felt it for the longest time..thank you..