Back home for a few days now. I have a habit of soaking myself in bath tub overseas..so shiok..damn emo or if one calls it romantic to soak oneself in a bath tub with dim lights and emo music playing from the laptop...

but somehow i get a headache from it. breathless too.

right now i feel am so down. been feeling this way for a couple of months now. it jus doesnt seem to go away. i know it is a void that i am feeling. on the other hand, i know i should be happy with the way things are going for me. been free and buying a car i like..having lotsa friends, seeing the world, learning a language, having a supportive and loving family but yet i feel so lonely at times.

friends that who were once so close now seem so far. because of work schedules, or they have their bfs to be with or their own friends i hardly get to meet them. i meet new people but yet i feel so alone.

i drive home down the highway with the breeze blowing and music playing is enjoyable but yet feels so lonely.

sigh. i know i am jus down. it doesnt matter what is going on around me because it is me feeling down.