The most amazing woman i have "met". One of the most wonderful books I have read too.
"Love is something like the clouds that were in the sky before the sun came out...You cannot touch the clouds, you know;but you can feel the rain and know how glad the flowers and the thirsty earth are to have it after a hot day. You cannot touch love either;but you feel the sweetness that it pours into everything. Without love you would not be happy or want to play."
Through her words, I learnt alot about myself too. That are certain things in me that I have in thoughts but never had the right words to express them. Alot of it are our instinctive tendencies and it takes awhile for us to put them in words..Like what Helen says, "trying to write is like putting a puzzle together. We have a pattern in mind which we wish to put in words; but the words will not fit the spaces, or if they do, they do not match the design. But we keep on trying because we know that others have succeeded, and we are not willing to acknowledge defeat." - For this, i saw it happened when I was rushing through reports after reports for my projects in university and now, when i am blogging.. There are just soo many thoughts and things that I feel so strongly at times but they are all in my mind, to put in words, it calls forth my skills of articulation.
Like how I accomplish more things when I am less involved in work or how I would choose to do other stuff when I should be doing my work when I was in university...I realised that - "will not work joyously unless he feels that liberty is his, whether he is busy or at rest;he must feel the flush of victory and the heart-sinking disappointment before he takes with a will the tasks distasteful to him and resolves to dance this way bravely through a dull routine of textbooks." - this speaks entirely how i feel at times.
It is also the lack of time that prevents me from achieving those things I wanted to do. I am someone who needs time to think, to reflect,my mind and I. To listen to my inner melodies of the spirit, to commune with my thoughts. Yet, when I was in university, it was simply impossible to do that unless I skip lessons? One enters the portals of learning when in university, there is just sooo much to learn, it makes little time for one to think.
Helen has such strength and the right attitude towards her life. In her book, she wrote " I do not blame anyone......If they unintentionally placed obstacles in my way, I have the consolation of knowing I overcame it all."
I find familiarity and comfort in her words as she wrote of her difficulties in college and her learning of French, German and Latin. "Everyone who wishes to gain true knowledge must climb the Hill Difficulty alone, and since there is no royal road to the summit, I must zigzag it in my own way. I slip back many times, I fall, I stand still, I run against the edge of hidden obstacles, I lose my temper and find it again and keep it better, I trudge on, I gain a little, I feel encouraged, I get more eager and climb higher and begin to see the widening horizon. Every struggle is a victory."
- I think alot of people who have been struggling out there in various areas of their life finds this very familiar. Perhaps alot of us have seen this through in our life. I had this in my years of study as a student, as a young girl in love and learning to love through my formative years, my relationships with my loved ones..
