Why I am still single
Last night, I was out on a date. We havent met each other before. Except that we could roughly make out how the other party looks like based on pictures from Friendster. It's weird . Totally weird. It's so unlike me.... I just set myself up on a blind date!!!! Gosh. Anyway, my date was close to what I had wanted in a guy. He was tall, nice built. (goes to gym often) and from all those SMS, he has quite a sense of humour. I was hopeful.
We agreed to meet for dinner and drinks. For once, I was in a black dress...all dolled up with that barbie hairdo. It was exciting if you ask me, not knowing what to expect. (My appetite for risk is getting higher)
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Verdict : It was BAD.
Why?
1)He was late. I waited for more than half an hour. Didnt you guys know that being late for a date, especially a first date is a big NO? Not that I had never make anyone wait. But for a first date?
2)Dinner was quiet. He couldnt hold a good conversation without having me to repeat what I said. Maybe it was a first meeting and all..shy..whatever but my idea of a good first date is to at least hold a decent enough conversation and not keep to your food. (Usually, that's what i do)
3)Adjourned for drinks...I was thinking things would change...probably open up with the effects of alcohol? Then I realised, he was into chinese songs...Sense of humour was different..there was really NOTHING to talk about.
Lessons learnt : DO NOT set yourself on blind dates! hahahahha...
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Me says: tell me, when with xxx, do u feel in love?
pal says: like how?
Me says: hmm..u know, that u know ure happy..that u really like or love this person....that u think u can overcome alot of things with that person
Me says: i dunno...i think i dun even know what in love is
pal says: that's faith
Me says: faith in a person? faith in a person makes me want to love that person and not just feel in love?
pal says: you need to meet someone who really loves you and you can love...also in love.
pal says: haven't you felt that you won't regret if you marry the guy you go out?
Me says: hmmm....so far, i did feel that once...it was my first bf...i was 17? we were together for 5 years. until now, i think i wont regret. but...
Me says: i know he is not enough for me. Not regretting and feeling inadequate is different.
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